At this point some of you may have become curious or even confused with regards to the name of my blog, asking yourself:
Hopefully today’s post clears up some of your curiosities, and you can understand the method behind the madness.
“[Bitch] I’m ill, not sick”, was first uttered by Lil Wayne or Weezy, in the song A Milli, on my personal favorite album Tha Carter III. (Actually it was motherfucker, but I’m trying to tone it down just a touch). This line for whatever reason has always resonated with me.
When I think of sick, I think of weak, helpless, and needy. I also think of acute problems, tissues, cold medicine, “get well” balloons. None of those things match what it really means to be chronically ill. For a person with a chronic illness a “get well soon” can feel like a slap in the face or punch in gut. It’s at that moment I want to say “Bitch, I’m ill not sick.”
Everyone finds wisdom in different pockets of their lives, and for me Lil Wayne really did say it best, being chronically ill is so more than being sick. So I’m just out here trying to be the illest, to thrive where I can. It almost feels like one of those reclaiming the word used against you kinda things. And whatever your views on Lil Wayne and Young Money as a whole may be, it sure as hell is a nice change of pace from the royal bummer that is being sick.
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